I have lost that sparkle in my eye.

 

It’s been a while since I felt excited about something. My passions are kept the same, I’m sure of it. But nothing has excited me for the past couple of months. Was talking to my friends over the weekend, and I got reminded of how excited I used to feel about stuff. Random or big stuff, either would be good. The most recent one I remember feeling giddy about was my radio guesting, and that was two months ago. Carlo has it going for him now, and I kinda feel jealous that he’s looking forward to something.

 

I was talking to Ara and oddly enough, we, more or less, were rounded up the same about our life and our lifestyles. And it was both good and bad. But then, it just goes back to that one thing

 

I need to get that sparkle back in my eye.

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*pictures were taken after the taste testing (before i realized that the pie is picture worthy) hence may bawas. hahaha.

i have made tons of food experiments before, but this streak of success (i made some great inventions that i dont' care to blog about much, but have bragged to friends instead) can mean only two things, i'm getting better at it, or it's sheer blind luck :) hopefully, it's the former.

so my love for marshmallows and s'mores have come a long way. i've done the "roasting" of marshmallows over candles snd the gas range (gas range works better) and attempting to make my own marshmallows (failed). so now i have settled on making marshmallow fluff or cream, whatever you call it. it was so gooooood.

but after an hour or two, you get bored just swiping on the dark chocolate spread (bought the Nusco brand) on a graham cracker then topping it with the fluff, i decided to get inventive.

using a basic graham cracker crust ratio, i prepared some and put it on the pie foil plate. melted down chocolate, added a bit of cream and butterscotch liquer (we only had orange and butterscotch at home, and i needed to add depth. coffee would have been my next choice), then placed that on top of the graham. then on went a layer of the marshmallow cream, and i decided to design it with the same marshmallow cream, but with cocoa (i split the batch earlier). then unto the fridge. i was afraid of going sugar crazy, which i do, last night, so i waited until this morning to taste it. it was heaven on a plate. or perhaps, just a grown up version of the campfire thing :)

it's not YET for sale. hahah. i'm still enjoying my sugar rush to be in the right mind :)

There are 23 letters in your name.
Those 23 letters total to 98
There are 9 vowels and 14 consonants in your name.
 
What your first name means:

Spanish	Female	Clear.
Latin	Female	The Latinized form of the English Clarice, meaning famous. Famous bearer: Samuel Richardson's 18th century novel 'Clarissa Harlowe'.
Italian	Female	Clear.
English	Female	Variant of Clarice: A variant of the Latin Clara, meaning bright or clear. also a variant of Claire or Clarice. Bright; shining and gentle; famous.

Your number is: 8

The characteristics of #8 are: Practical endeavors, status oriented, power-seeking, high-material goals.

The expression or destiny for #8:
Your Expression is represented by the number 8. The 8 Expression is well-equipped in a managerial sense. You have outstanding organizational and administrative capabilities. You have the potential for considerable achievement in business or other powerful positions. You can expect to receive the financial and material rewards. You have the skill and abilities to establish or operate a business with great efficiency. You have good judgment when it comes to money and commercial matters, and you understand how to build and accumulate material wealth. Much of your success (or lack of it) may come due to your ability (or inability) to judge character. With the number 8 Expression, you exercise sound judgment in most of your affairs; you are realistic and practical in your approach to business matters.

The positive 8 Expression produces individuals that are very ambitious and goal-oriented. If the 8 energy is not in excess in your makeup, you will no doubt express these traits to some extent. No one has any more energy that a person with the 8 Expression who has a plan laid and is starting to work. No one has any more self-confidence, either. If you are expressing the positive qualities of 8, you are an outstanding manager because you can plan, initiate, and complete projects; you are very dependable and determined.

As it always happens, there can be too much of a good thing. If you have too much of the 8 energy in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes. A negative 8 can be very rigid and stubborn. Ambition sometimes has a way of becoming over-ambition, and you may express an unreasonable impatience with the lack of progress. If your negative side is showing, you may be too exacting, both of yourself and of others. Sometimes this can even becomes a case of intolerance.

The number 8 is very materialistic and also very desirous of status and power. Neither of these drives are inherently negative unless they are taken to an extreme. You must avoid the tendency to strain after money, material matters, status, or power, to the detriment of the other important factors in your life.

Your Soul Urge number is: 5

A Soul Urge number of 5 means:
The 5 soul urge or motivation would like to follow a life of freedom, excitement, adventure and unexpected happening. The idea of travel and freedom to roam intrigues you. You are very much the adventurer at heart. Not particularly concerned about your future or about getting ahead, you can seem superficial and unmotivated.

In a positive sense, the energies of the number 5 make you very adaptable and versatile. You have a natural resourcefulness and enthusiasm that may mark you as a progressive with a good mind and active imagination. You seem to have a natural inclination to be a pace-setter. You are attracted to the unusual and the fast paced.

You may be overly restless and impatient at times. You may dislike the routine work that you are engaged in, and tend to jump from activity to activity, without ever finishing anything. You may have difficulty with responsibility. You don't want to be tied down to a relationship, and it may be hard to commit to one person.

Your Inner Dream number is: 3

An Inner Dream number of 3 means:
You dream of artistic expression; writing, painting, music. You would seek to more freely express your inner feeling and obtain more enjoyment from life. You also dream of being more popular, likable, and appreciated.

I started celebrating my birthday last Friday with the usual Embassy, which of course lasted until early Saturday. A long chat with ara happened before we separated to go home, which then continued to a lunch and movie with Mom, Jarell and Patrick. Of course, having napped only before lunch, i was almost asleep for the entirety of Kung Fu Panda and hardly understood it (i know, it's cartoons, but i still didn't get to watch the entire thing!). A little bit of shopping killed my sleepiness :)

SG plans on Sunday were foiled because of  Frank the typhoon. And shopping wasn't that fun when i didn't get to buy anything at all.

Monday was my birthday! i just had a quiet dinner at home with some of my favorite foods. although mom chose to make handa some food that i don't even eat, like pasta with meat and other meat stuff :)

Tuesday was a ho humm. i was supposed to buy the pair of shoes i fell in love with in People are People, but then the Adventure broke down and leaked oil. That killed my mood and instead of just bringing the other car to the mall, i opted to just stay in.

Wednesday, i tried to get the shoes again, but then, i realized i wasn't in love with it. i thought the shoes were ugly. Fickle. So i shopped around the mall while waiting for my ate's plane to land. i didn't see anything i liked either. ugh. i went home, empty handed, with my ate fresh from Vietnam. At least i got new clothes from her, a couple of odd spices that i told her to buy, and tons of chocolate :)

Thursday is today. Supposed to go to Guilly's but transpo complications! so that's nix for tonight. What is going to happen??!

Tomorrow, i have tons planned! i'm on leave!!! weeee. Saturday is family day!!! :) I'm excited for the early weekend :)

 

i finally found something i've been dreaming of for the past few months. the ceramic chef's knife. i completely forgot about checking at Rustan's in Makati, and when i saw it in today's mafbex, i almost drooled all over it. but since the expo was on a cash basis only transaction, i kept my frustration to myself. i had like frigging no moneyand that frustrated me so. it was Php 4,100. i shall drag my mom to Rustan's on Sunday and do a birthday shopping spree. i also saw the Silpat, discounted also, at Php800 only! hay. when i'm at the end of my liquidity's worth, i run into these best things :)

For those who are close to me, or have read my blog before, it’s already a known fact that I am a demi vegetarian. Meaning I don’t eat any kind of meat, which are pork, beef and poultry. (I’m not wildly sensitive though, I do have my chicken broth and stuff, and my gag reflex does not kick in if I suddenly swallow a piece of meat). But fair enough, I do crave my meats. For somebody who survived on eating just steak for a month (it was a craving thing), I can eat my meat. And for all those wondering, I have had my hankering for the strangest things. I decided to make a list of the things I have craved and my solutions (or non solutions) to those wants!

 

KFC Fried Chicken – I made my own super crispy and tasty fish fillet in thick batter. It was super crunchy! Yummy.

Corn Dogs – I made the batter, and fried them without the hotdog. So I was eating oily but yummy fried carbohydrates. Talk about unhealthy.

Embutido – I made my own embutido by using gluten. Gluten tastes bad. But I was able to mask it enough using monumental amounts of pickles and cheese. Then instead of liver spread, I used tuna meat loaf. Hahah. They taste the same J

Adobo -  I have had the adobado. It’s like fish adobo J

Bacon – Waaaah. No solution to that yet. .

Curry – I haven’t have had my fish curry yet. Ara, remember Sipalay???

Luncheon Meat -  I attempted to do a tuna meat loaf replacement and I just got frustrated with it. So it is gone from my diet completely L anybody who has good replacement?

Corned Beef – Still none. I miss eating this for breakfast.

Beef Steak – I almost cried while I was in Vietnam and my mom and ate were eating this. I actually settled on eating the onions with the sabaw. Hahah. Yes, that contains beef meat juices, but juices are better than binging on the real thing. J

 

Weird. I feel all my cravings are mababaw. Not the deep seated ones you get from not having it since uh, 8 months! Woohooo J

 

I never craved for steak, yet J

I'm not sure what brought this on, but right now, i'm really feeling out of it, and depressed as well. do you ever feel like you wanna hide away from the world and just keep a moment to yourself, even if temporarily?

well, that's how i feel right now. :s

A quiz with so little questions but scares the heck out of me cuz i think it's true, or at least this is the person i perceive myself to be. :) thanks to ping! http://www.ipersonic.com/test.html

Spontaneous Idealist (SI)

The spontaneous idealist is a creative, lively and open-minded person. He is humorous and disposes of a contagious zest for life. His enthusiasm and sparkling energy inspires others and sweeps them along. He enjoys being together with other people and often has an uncanny intuition for their motivations and potential. The spontaneous idealist is a master of communication and a very amusing and gifted entertainer. Fun and variety are guaranteed when he is around. However, he is sometimes somewhat too impulsive in dealing with others and can hurt people without really meaning to do so, due to his direct and sometimes critical nature.

This personality type is a keen and alert observer; he misses nothing which is going on around him. In extreme cases, he tends to be oversensitive and exaggeratedly alert and is inwardly always ready to jump. Life for him is an exciting drama full of emotionality. However, he quickly becomes bored when things repeat themselves and too much detailed work and care is required. His creativity, his imaginativeness and his originality become most noticeable when developing new projects and ideas - he then leaves the meticulous implementation of the whole to others. On the whole, the spontaneous idealist attaches great value to his inner and outward independence and does not like accepting a subordinate role. He therefore has problems with hierarchies and authorities.

If you have a spontaneous idealist as your friend, you will never be bored; with him, you can enjoy life to the full and celebrate the best parties. At the same time, he is warm, sensitive, attentive and always willing to help. If the spontaneous idealist has just fallen in love, the sky is full of violins and his new partner is showered with attention and affection. This type then bubbles over with charm, tenderness and imagination. But, unfortunately, it soon becomes boring for him once the novelty has worn off. Boring everyday life in a partnership is not for him so that many spontaneous idealists slip from one affair into another. However, should the partner manage to keep his curiosity alive and not let routine and familiarity gain the upper hand, the spontaneous idealist can be an inspiring and loving partner.

Adjectives which describe your type

spontaneous, enthusiastic, idealistic, extroverted, theoretical, emotional, relaxed, friendly, optimistic, charming, helpful, independent, individualistic, creative, dynamic, lively, humorous, full of zest for life, imaginative, changeable, adaptable, loyal, sensitive, inspiring, sociable, communicative, erratic, curious, open, vulnerable

These subjects could interest you

literature, art, music, parties, concerts, travel, dancing, eating out, joint pleasure

My friends know how I do it a few weeks before my birthday. As soon somebody asks me what I want for my birthday, I sit down in front of my computer and create a list of things I want. It’s not a requirement to get me anything. I love gifts, but I only love getting those I really like. I’m bad at faking emotions to liking something I don’t, so I settle on creating this list. But the bad thing is, I can’t seem to list realistic gifts. Is this part of growing up? Most of the stuff I want, I can already get or have gotten. And the rest are insanely expensive or can’t be wrapped in a box. I am growing up J hopefully not so much. J

 

-          A laptop J

-          A new car J

-          Second and third book of the Twilight series (if you are getting it for me, please tell me immediately cuz I am planning to get the book ASAP, as soon as its available in the stores)

-          A chance to become a contributor in the newspaper or magazine J

-          More time with my friends and family

-          Time to really focus on my food stuff J

-          More travel opportunities (meaning I need time and money) , both local and international

-          A publisher who wants my books

-          Embassy again J I miss it too much.